i have worked in a couple of situations where i am online and the movers are in a studio together. i don't know what it feels like but it's funny to me because i think they are seeing way more than they might see in person. there's a looming presence. the wall sized boxes become the environment one is dancing in, the zoomers become the wall. perhaps they were having to mentally navigate the glitches! i have no idea what they felt but it was interesting to be alone in the room and know that i was being seen by a group who were responding but i couldn't see them fully and yet i could feel them and hear breath and footsteps and brushes of clothing on the floor. very trippy. as the facilitator i felt i had failed completely but apparently they all felt energized and inspired by the end. phew! hard to navigate when i'm unable to see their response.

but to get back to maintaining focus, i was following my own imagination and sensation journey, i needed to take my own instruction to feel my way through the experience and hoping something would be received. i think i came to trust a little bit more in my own poetic licence during the pandemic... and then checking in. what the heck was that like for everyone? i could feel something even in the silent pauses of check-ins. there was always a sense of surprise, delight and investigative drive - where are we? where do we want to go? how will we get there? no one knew but everyone was forever ready to try things... dancers are amazingly generous people, can i just say that?